"You are walking along the path I have chosen for you. It is both a privileged and a perilous way."
My devotional started out with these words. God has such an obvious way of pointing things out to me. I am always caught off guard by the subtlety of His words but so awestruck when I realize what's just happened. The God of the universe took a minute to show me how important I am in this crazy world.
I'm almost half way through my 40 day fast. I was unsure of what to expect. The last two fasts I did had a plan of what I intended to accomplish. I fasted, I prayed, God revealed and I saw certain things come to pass.
I started this fast without an actual outcome in mind. So many things have happened in the past couple of months. I had become completely unbalanced and felt like I was off the path that God has me on. My only plan was to recenter myself with Him. I knew I had lost touch with where I should be. The first week of this fast was very shaky. I thought for sure I wouldn't be able to get in the right frame of mind to focus solely on speaking and listening to my Jesus. The second week I completely fell apart. This last week has been a total turn around. When I read my devotional for tonight it all became clear. No matter how far I thought I was from God I wasn't far at all.
This road is not supposed to be smooth. It is truly privileged and most recently quite perilous. The last few days I have had the song "praise you in the storm" stuck in my head. Lately I have just let the storm overwhelm me. I was so wrapped up in my hurt, my feelings and my pain that I couldn't see Jesus in the boat with his hand out. He was waiting for me to grab it but I just let the waves keep pulling me under. This past weekend I saw his hand and finally grabbed it. He could've just pulled me out but it had to be my choice. Seeing as how I jumped off the boat in the first place. A good father lets his child jump from safety but will always be there to guide them back, no matter how much it hurts them. A parent never wants to see their child hurt but they know they will have to face it and will come out stronger for it.
I'm still in the storm but I am not alone. I am praising the one who brought me to and will bring me through the storm. No where are we promised an easy road. But we are promised that we will not have to face the peril alone.
I don't know what the next three weeks will hold but I do know that I will be holding on to the one and only person that can bring me through it.
My devotional started out with these words. God has such an obvious way of pointing things out to me. I am always caught off guard by the subtlety of His words but so awestruck when I realize what's just happened. The God of the universe took a minute to show me how important I am in this crazy world.
I'm almost half way through my 40 day fast. I was unsure of what to expect. The last two fasts I did had a plan of what I intended to accomplish. I fasted, I prayed, God revealed and I saw certain things come to pass.
I started this fast without an actual outcome in mind. So many things have happened in the past couple of months. I had become completely unbalanced and felt like I was off the path that God has me on. My only plan was to recenter myself with Him. I knew I had lost touch with where I should be. The first week of this fast was very shaky. I thought for sure I wouldn't be able to get in the right frame of mind to focus solely on speaking and listening to my Jesus. The second week I completely fell apart. This last week has been a total turn around. When I read my devotional for tonight it all became clear. No matter how far I thought I was from God I wasn't far at all.
This road is not supposed to be smooth. It is truly privileged and most recently quite perilous. The last few days I have had the song "praise you in the storm" stuck in my head. Lately I have just let the storm overwhelm me. I was so wrapped up in my hurt, my feelings and my pain that I couldn't see Jesus in the boat with his hand out. He was waiting for me to grab it but I just let the waves keep pulling me under. This past weekend I saw his hand and finally grabbed it. He could've just pulled me out but it had to be my choice. Seeing as how I jumped off the boat in the first place. A good father lets his child jump from safety but will always be there to guide them back, no matter how much it hurts them. A parent never wants to see their child hurt but they know they will have to face it and will come out stronger for it.
I'm still in the storm but I am not alone. I am praising the one who brought me to and will bring me through the storm. No where are we promised an easy road. But we are promised that we will not have to face the peril alone.
I don't know what the next three weeks will hold but I do know that I will be holding on to the one and only person that can bring me through it.
3 comments:
hold on sweet princess, hold on.
GOD promises a safe landing, Not a
calm Passage. Remember you are Safe
and Divinely protected at all times.
I love your blog! You really speak to me!
He Maketh No Mistake
"My Father's way may twist and turn,
My heart may throb and ache,
But in my soul I'm glad I know
He maketh no mistake.
My cherished plans may go astray,
My hopes may fade away,
But still I'll trust my Lord to lead,
For He doth know the way.
Though night be dark and it may seem
That day will never break,
I'll pin my faith, my all in Him,
He maketh no mistake.
There's so much now I cannot see,
My eyesight's far too dim;
But come what may, I'll surely trust
And leave it all to Him.
For by and by the mist will lift
And plain it all He'll make;
Through all the way, though dark to me,
He made not one mistake."
(A. M. Overton)
Your entries are beautiful, Maria. I journal quite often myself. It is the journey of one heart, one mind, one soul seeking Him and finding Him...over and over again. I'm so thankful that through it all, there has always been the gentle melody of His grace playing in the background. I am safely surrounded by His grace. Your friend, Alison Lovato
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